I wrote something today.
And I thought of you.
And how much you may need to hear this today.
Because God knows how much I need to hear this every day, and maybe not just hear it… but believe it.
I tell myself again and again to believe it, and I want you to believe it too.
Together, I know we can believe this.
So today I share with you what I wrote. Because I wrote it for you.
I crave you in your purest form.
Do you not see that beyond all comparison
Y o u a re l o v e d.
Just reflecting on the day or the days lately, and I think of the moments in which I valued the most.
And when it is that I saw people in “their purest form”
When someone was strong enough to say
“I felt really hurt”
“I’m really frustrated”
Or simply shared with me what they did during their day.
or what is on their heart.
it was brave.
I think we often overthink things.
I’ll speak for myself there, but I over think a lot. Probably a whole lot for my own good.
And you know what I was thinking… is that a lot of times it stems from this sense of control I think I have or want to have.
I want to control everything and how it goes.
How I want to be seen
How others see me
How I come off
And time and time again that nagging thought: WHAT R PPL THINKING OF ME
Why does this thought come and go so often?
I feel my anxiousness rise in and out of me as I sit in unknown places.
Not knowing what others are thinking of me
Then I soon realize how inward this thinking is
How I think so much in these moments of how I am possibly being perceived,
when maybe no one is really perceiving these things at all.
How maybe everyone is thinking the same things I am.
Or maybe not
Maybe my thoughts are unique to me.
But also maybe my thoughts connect with one of you.
And the more I can give a voice to whatever those thoughts are
The more I can give less power to them.
The more you and I can connect.
On some level.
Sometimes I think about this hard wired innate desire for connection between us.
And how we all effect each other.
Good or bad,
We always will.
I see that in and through my thoughts I see this theme of comparison
And how it’s the thief of my joy in even the simplest moments.
And as I compare myself, I love myself less.
And it’s draining. Exhausting most days.
But I know I’m not the only one who does this, because you have told me so.
With your own words, with your own heart.
And I feel that same comparison in your voice too.
And I look you in YOUR eyes and I tell you, YOU ARE ENOUGH.
I’ll tell you again and again until you believe those words coming out of your own mouth.
Three of the hardest words to believe with your heart, huh?
I wake up most days and think about how I’m not skinny enough, not fit enough, not pretty enough, not smart enough, not experienced enough, not kind enough…
The cycle is UNENDING.
But my mind goes to this place
Almost instinctly …
There are times I feel social media has something to do with this comparison.
How easily I can access your life and compare it to mine.
How easily I can think
I don’t have that body
I don’t look that good in pictures
OMGOSH as I write this I want to SHAKE MYSELF
And talk to myself like I would a friend and say again and again
Til we believe it
YOU ARE ENOUGH.
I’ll shout it even louder, so you believe it
YOU ARE ENOUGH
Write it in the sky if I have to.
You are not what post
How many likes you get
How put together your life is
Because reality is, I love my life even in the messiest parts of it.
It reminds me how human I am.
And what a beautiful thing it is to be alive.
“Talk to yourself like a friend” they say.
I’m learning to love myself.
And I write this for you as I speak to m y s e l f.
Not knowing if you will ever read this.
But if you do.
If you are.
Just know, how incredibly lucky this world is to have you.
To know you.
To see you.
To taste even a bit of your kindness.
To see that radiating smile of yours.
To hear your kind words.
And how incredibly lucky it is to smile right back at you.
To give love you must be willing to receive it.
And maybe you won’t even read this at all
But when and if you do
I hope you see one day, if you haven’t already, that you deserve nothing less but to live in thoughts that give you hope and joy.
With people who long to surround you with JOY.
and how that is a C H O I C E.
Truth is the good stuff won’t be that way everyday but I want you to know deep down that you are not your imperfections
However you are imperfect
But who says that is a bad thing?
This world tricked us into thinking that perfection is worth striving for.
And it will continue to trick us, my friend.
L e t’ s n o t l e t I t .
For in your purest form
You are you
You are loved
You are imperfect BUT SO LOVED
Gazed upon with great love.
Part II: In My Reflection
I remind myself of you every day.
The courage you had to stand up for what you believe in
even in the hardest times.
The you that had the courage to step out of toxic situations
That you that had the courage to find your voice
To make a choice
To give a voice
To those who thought they had none.
That you that goes out of your way, just to make people smile.
You who is awesome
You who is radiant
And you who is loved.
I cry sometimes at the thought of how you don’t see this
How you are so down on yourself
and how you don’t see what great courage and beauty you behold
What great love you behold
What great love lives inside of you
And what great love oozes out of you
Just because the people around you don’t tell you
Or don’t make you see it
Doesn’t mean it’s not there
Stop selling yourself short
And start making choices on what and who you surround yourself with
its more important than you think.
I’m tired of you looking in the mirror and not seeing your worthiness
For you have made it this far
you can’t go back from here
I won’t let you
I can’t bear to see it.
For in you I see the little girl
Who loves to sing
Who loves to dance
Who loves to make people smile and laugh
Who, like your mother in heaven,
shows and gives love through the pure gift of affection
It is in and through this embrace
that you can embrace others with the love of your creator
Who loves you SO
Who holds you and uplifts you
And your soul
You are enough.
Feel it in your bones, say it in your heart
YOU ARE ENOUGH
Say it with your tears
Say it with your smile
YOU ARE ENOUGH
Feel it in your toes
Feel it in your nose
YOU ARE ENOUGH
Believe it with your words
Believe it with your eyes
YOU ARE ENOUGH.
To be enough is to be loved
To be cherished
to know of your worthiness
To take care of you because you matter
You are important
You are smart
You are out of this world
O n e o f a k i n d.
Part III: Connection
You know what is funny though?
Is that at the end of the day
what I remember is what made you smile
And what my heart felt to see your smile
To see you light up and to feel it in my heart too
And I want my connection with the world to be meaningful
Because connection means something
somehow, really it means everything.
And I wanna connect meaningfully.
So if believing in my worthiness
Means I can connect with you more meaningfully,
Then I’ll tell myself time and time again
I am enough.
and so are you.